WEEKEND + FIVE THINGS

The only way to describe the past weekend is with this…”it was the worst of times, it was the best of times.“

Best and worst…in the same weekend. I started out as an emotional, overwhelmed wreck and ended as a refreshed, renewed woman! Flowers, chocolate, sleep, and quality time with my husband will do that to me…

Honestly, Friday and Saturday were some of the hardest days I’ve had in a long time…and it was just like a culmination of the weeks of anticipation and excitement and readiness, but all of which have only ended with disappointment at the end of each day. My hormones were all over the place, and I literally went from laughing to crying in a matter of seconds. I was just exhausted emotionally. I just felt done. So tired of feeling excited…so tired of being disappointed when I went another day or another night without my baby in my arms.

Ben and I are both big all-in’ers in whatever we do…goal-oriented-get things done-put-your-heart-and-soul-into-what-is-in-front-of-you type of people. And honestly, that tendency has worked against us in this season of life, because we are just all-in for this child of ours. We live it, breath it, focus on it…it’s not a bad characteristic, but in this case, it has not been our friend. We’ve spent the past month literally thinking we would go into birth mode at any moment, which was our first mistake. #rookieparents For our next pregnancy, we’ve learned to not create expectations, no matter how progressed or labor positive things appear to be. You just gotta keep living and let things happen when they happen…don’t expect it to happen when you want!

My kind midwife ended up coming over on Saturday to check on things and to help ease my anxiety and fears. The baby is doing well and good, with good heartbeat and movements. Things are progressing towards being ready for labor…just taking it’s good sweet time! It definitely helped ease my mind and heart to know everything is still ok and looking positive. She recommended that we get away somewhere for a day or so, if we at all can…just to destress and relax. “Stressed mamas never go into labor!” My dear, sweet husband ended up finding us a last-minute Priceline hotel deal and whisked me away to Rochester for two glorious days! I woke up on Sunday morning and it felt like the entire world had been lifted from my shoulders…like I could breathe again. Just being in a different place and focusing on something else was such a relief.

We had a brunch date and went for walks and hung out at the pool and ate burgers and read books and relaxed to our heart’s content. It was amazing! It was just what I needed. I came home on Monday afternoon ready to face the week ahead, no matter what that looks like. I felt renewed with a grace to walk through each day that comes. The Lord has given us so many great and wonderful promises…so many great and wonderful things! Our child is part of those promises, and my heart feels an incredible sense of belief in His good plans for us. He knows the best time for this little one to come into the world.

So onward we wait!

PS. Ben and I have both been blown away with all the kindness + encouragement from so many people! Your prayers + love during these weeks have been amazing, and we are so grateful to be surrounded with such a caring community. xoxo

Here are five things I love:

– this wise article
– this is too cute
– this looks yum
– and this
– this is so pretty

What about you: how was your weekend?

I’d love to hear your thoughts!